May ‘25

Settings

Go to Settings. Then click Undo Auto Settings.

Where in heaven’s name are my auto settings? I have a few settings I’d like to disarm. For example, I’d like to remove my irritation of others and turn off my disregard toward those who are too different from me. I would love to pause my insecurities around those smarter than me. Or delete my fears of situations that scare me. And I’d love to find a way to block my judgement of – let’s face it – anyone at any given moment.

The immediacy of my reactions – those auto settings in my heart – confound me. I fumble around looking for the off switch, deep down in the settings of my configuration.

Going into the settings of my soul is not straightforward. It is hard to find love, joy and peace. I can never seem to remember where they are. And maybe if I didn’t have to manually select patience, kindness, and goodness each time, I’d use them more often. I know that others have found where to turn on self-control, but I’m so unfamiliar with this part of my operating system. I might as well learn to code if I want to function at that level.

I will say - it has occurred to me that if I could find out where to delete two old vows which have been running for a long time things might run more smoothly. I’ll Never and I Will Always definitely take up a ton of memory on my hard drive.

Excuse me, what was that, God? YOU created a shortcut in settings to respond to me? Two of them? Lemme see there: Grace and Mercy? Oh. Uh-huh, I see. And you are configured to love me all the time? Hmm. Interesting.

Wait, what is that?! There’s a setting for Self-Compassion? No way! How is that possible – CLICK. Ohhh. Gentleness. Niiice. That IS lovely. I had no idea I could try these on myself.

Yes, I DO see how this might enhance my operating system. Hey, look there – all those other settings switched off automatically. Well now. This is a game changer.